Bet you thought I fell off the wagon?

Nope.

Due to weather, my WW meeting was canceled last week. Today I weighed in and lost .8 over the past 2 weeks. A good, modest loss. I could have done better, though. I have been eating all my WPA the last 2 weeks and having too much sugar.

I'm doing better on my medication. My BP has been running low enough to make me dizzy. It's probably time for me to reassess my dosage and back off.

Still chugging along with no major changes.

Project Runway a Motivator?

I love Project Runway. It is absolutely amazing what those designers can do on a shoe string budget and no time. Their looks inspire me, and help me keep abreast of changing fashion trends. (I also love What Not to Wear, and I'm addicted to finding leaked photos of the upcoming Sex and the City movie.) I am just a tad bit of a clothes horse -- more like a clothes pony. If I could bring myself to spend more money on my clothes, I'd actually be a full-grown horse.



Well, today in my bored wanderings of the internet, I wandered over to Bluefly.com for the first time. (I admit the reason I went there is because Bluefly.com is the main sponser for Project Runway this year.) Bluefly.com offers couture accessories, shoes, and clothing at a discounted price. (Like Ebay, Amazon, and Zappos.com.) I admit to wandering the internet for couture, but nothing has ever truly jumped out at me as a "must have."



That is, before today.



Today, I found this Vera Wang silk charmuese dress. It's listed for around $120! Although more than I would spend on a normal day dress, this isn't outside of the normal range for what I would spend for a cocktail dress or a dress to wear to a wedding. I think it's gorgous. It's shape is just fabulous, and it would hide my new mommy pooch.



Problem. . . the biggest size offered is size 12.



I haven't been a size 12 since I was a freshman in highschool. Oh wait, I was briefly a size 12 right after law school but at the strain-the-upper-limits-of-the-pants range. If I am doing my math right, I'll be a size 12 in about 50 lbs. Sigh.


This seems so overwhelming. But, at the same time after reaching my 5 lb goal in just 2 weeks, it also seems pretty doable. Conceivably, I could be wearing this dress in just 6 months. And that is motivating.


I'm going to keep that in mind: if I continue to do well (as I have been for 2+ weeks), I could buy myself the Vera Wang dress I've always wanted. And, if it's by June, I'll even have a wedding to wear it to.


It may seem a petty, selfish motivator. But it's still a motivator.

Week 2 of being back on track and I lost another 3.0 lbs! Whoo hoo! I focused this week on eating enough veggies and drinking enough water. It really does make a difference. I'm going to continue this committment for the next week.

I also took by BP for the first time in several weeks. I have the bad habit of forgetting my BP medication for days at a time, and I was curious what my unmedicated BP would be since I've been feeling fine. It was 130/90. Not bad, but not great.

So, my commitment this week is to take my medication every day.

Small Victory

I'm psyched and wanted to share!

I worked out instead of eating!

I finally reviewed Weight Watchers new week 3 materials. It's an eating personality profile. My top problem? Emotional eating. Not really a surprise. I know I eat when I'm upset, sad, stressed, or bored. But, for the first time, I really paid attention to the ideas for avoiding emotional eating. The key: substitute? If you're still hungry in 15 minutes, then you can eat.

Yesterday morning, trudging through too much boring reading, I had the urge to grab a 3 mustketeers out of my stash. I recognized it as boredom, so I stopped. I looked up some desk work out moves and did 15 minutes of strength training at my desk. And when I was done, I wasn't hungry. (Thirsty, but not hungry.) I repeated the process this morning.

So, now I have a first step defense against boredom hunger at work. Yeah!

Off to a Good Start

After recommitting to Weight Watchers last week, I am off to a good start. My goal is to "attend and perform under Weight Watchers." Iam doing that. This week, I stayed within my points range for the week. It paid off.

I lost 2.6 lbs this week!

I was quite surprised by the substantial loss. I knew I did well, but I had braced myself for a 1 to 2 lb loss, which is healthy and normal for me. I'm very excited.

This week I'm going to add water. I want to drink the minimum eight 8 oz glasses per day.

(Evan, Bobby, and me as of 12-14-2007.)

New Year -- Same Journey

"I am not aiming to 'loose weight' or to reach a certain level. My goal is to obtain overall health by eating right, exercising, and maintaining my mind (i.e. education) and spirtuality."

I wrote these words on January 3, 2006. I can't believe it's been two years since I started this blog! My goal is (sadly) the same today as it was almost exactly two years ago. The vague statement, while useful, has not proved particularly helpful.

I need some very specific goals for 2008 that will get me towards my vague goal of overall health. These are goals for the whole year:

(1) Loose 20 pounds in a healthy and balanced manner. ("Lifestyle Goal")
(2) Complete 3 Bible Studies this year ("Spirituality Goal")
(3) Investigate post-District Court employment and develop a career plan. ("Employment Goal")

There is no specific "family" goal this year, other than to keep things functioning. With Bobby only 2 1/2 months old, this year will be about finding our balance as a family not about making any particular changes.

These goals are my goals for the whole year. Each of them needs to be broken down into discrete steps. For starters, I want to approach each goal by:
(1) Lifestyle Goal: Attend and perform under Weight Watchers
(2) Spirituality Goal: Facilitate Women of Grace for Winter semester. Consider spring and fall studies.
(3) Employment Goal: In August, begin investigation. Until then, just sit on it. This is not my highest priority, but I can see that I will need to obtain appropriate training or education during 2009 for any major job change in the next 2-3 years.

So, this is the place to start: go to Weight Watchers; stay on plan; gear up for WOG starting January 28th.

Even though I feel like I'm in the same place I was 2 years ago, I know that is not true. I want to finish out this entry by examining some of my successes:
(1) Lost 30 lbs in about 15 months on Weight Watchers.
(2) Had a baby. (Hence I have to loose the same 30 lbs. . .)
(3) Stepped up to facilitate Bible study at my church.
(4) Continue with a fantastic job that I love and that fits my age/stage of life well.
(5) Am still happily married, despite said baby, the closing of my husband's business and his change in careers.

Happy New Year's!